Though I have started work at Freshfields, I will continue to vend until Christmas – you can’t suddenly stop existing in a cash, hand-to-mouth way and start sitting and waiting for a pay check, as the catastrophic roll-out of universal credit illustrates so painfully. Even after that, I will probably take a Friday/Saturday evening bar job or something similar to maintain cash flow.
But my plan to conquer the universe doesn’t stop here. I often sold The Big Issue on Drury Lane. After hearing, for the thousandth time, a tourist burst into a chorus of Do You Know the Muffin Man? I looked around and realised that there is a Muffin Man-shaped space on Drury Lane into which I would fit perfectly. I had the go-ahead from Camden and was on the verge of launching my stall when our domestic crisis struck. So now I have to start again from scratch but this time I will be supported by King’s Cross Business Hub, to whom I was introduced by, you guessed it, The Big Issue Foundation.
Come on, how cool would that be? My children love the whole idea of being able to say “my dad’s the Muffin Man” and if you can’t sell muffins on Drury Lane successfully, what kind of cockamamie world do we live in? So, all being well, this time next year, if anybody asks you, “Do you know the Muffin Man?”, you can answer, “Certainly! He used to sell The Big Issue.”
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Andre on starting a business
The officer said “Get up, pick up your sleeping bag and bugger off!” And, immediately, the man did as he was told. But the man was not cured of his homelessness … Because homelessness is not an infirmity … I think. I have been a Big Issue vendor for six years: six happy years – you don’t have to be miserable because you’re homeless. I mentioned being happy – that is, so far as I can work it out, pure luck. It is just my disposition. Being homeless typically takes an enormous emotional and psychological toll: it is profoundly distressing, it can be crushing.
The first thing that gets damaged is your confidence: when you are homeless – especially if you are rough sleeping – a whole raft of assumptions are made about you and, sometimes unintentionally or subconsciously, most people who become aware of your circumstances are guarded, suspicious or openly hostile. You are invested with your lack of shelter. Which brings us neatly round to muffins.
Yes. Muffins. It was on Drury Lane I had the idea. So I made enquiries, did research, called, wrote to and visited Camden Council – contrived a business plan, and got permission to sell muffins there.
After a few bumps in the road I now have a business mentor, through the good offices of The Big Issue, and I aim to be up and running by Easter 2019, selling muffins part time. If it succeeds, I can go full time, if it goes belly up, I should be able to fall back on the office work. So far so good.
But there is one small flaw in my plan to conquer, if not the universe, then a small corner of Camden – I am having trouble sourcing the right kind of muffin. I cannot sell heated food, while English muffins, delicious as they are toasted, taste like clay pigeons at street temperature. If the worst comes to the worst, I will simply sell American-style muffins to start, but I have a perfectly delicious third option that will be neither a chlorinated, unregulated American product, nor a false-toothshattering clump of dough.
I have written to bakers, visited bakers, emailed bakers, and can’t quite find what I’m after, so have decided to take a different approach: to do it all backwards, as it were – and make a general appeal for bakers – if anybody reading this article could help …
This is precisely the opposite of what my sensible, practical, pragmatic and highly professional business mentor advises but here’s the rub: it’s a confidence thing. The relationship, the years of homelessness, financial hardship, and so much more about our circumstances have whittled away my self-confidence and self-esteem: try as I might, when I do communicate with these bakers, I am over self-depreciatory, I feel hollow, confused, unworthy and this was exacerbated when it came to putting together a CV. Fortunately, I have professionals helping me with the CV – there is a tremendous amount of goodwill.
The problem isn’t who I know I am as a person, but what I feel I am – what I think other people think I am – I am comfortable with public speaking, performing, media – because that’s me being me – but when it comes to what I am, it is really hard to escape defining myself in terms of being homeless, which is why I’m comfortable being a Big Issue vendor – it’s like having the family name Baker and being a baker – it fits.
Anyway, with luck, a tailwind, a suitable baker, my hugely patient business mentor, loads more goodwill, Old Uncle Tom Cobbly and all, and any other support that presents itself, my hope is to reconcile who and what I am. Watch this space …
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